I Get Down.....

but He lifts me up again. :) I confess, yesterday was a very emotional day for me. I'm not sure that I can pinpoint exactly what was going on that contributed it but the bottom line is I was extremely wearied. I couldn't take hearing about another separation. I saw a couple videos promoting prevention against child abuse that caused an agony in my soul that was unexplainable. I was heartbroken, furious and then down-right angry at the way the justice system seemed to be headed. It was these and a combination of things going on in my personal life I suppose. I wasn't sure how many more people getting offended over the least little things I could stand anymore. I was to the point where life as a hermit sounded tempting and yet, at the same time, my going-it-alone was getting to me.

I prayed. "Lord, I know that you are in control. I do. But what I really want is to hear from You that You are." Okay, so perhaps not my exact words but very close. It could not have been more than 30 seconds and I think even less when a song came on the Contemporary Christian station. It was "God is in control" by Twila Paris. I knew this was the Lord's reassurance that despite what I was looking and definitely irregardless of what I was feeling/thinking at the moment, He was, is and will always be in control. I have that straight from the Lord and He lifted me back up again. Just keeping it real is all. :)

Just a note: Those are baby ostriches in that picture up above. Our homeschool students thought that someone was on a timeout for not listening but when I look at it in light of this post, I think that pictures shows how I was feeling. I would be that little bird with his/her nose in the corner.